...or should set in. Would have set in if I hadn't broken down and amitted (while being gently poked by the head shrinker and the doctor) that I had to do something to stop the several-times-a-day near hysteria. It is amazing how, well, NORMAL 1/2 of a little blue pill can make one feel, now that the insomnia and headaches have passed.
It is also, apparently, prohibiting me from feeling any sort of panic about the fact that I am no longer technically employed or drawing an income - me, the one who earns 80% of the household income. I just can't summon up the gumption to be panicked - or care much at all.
In truth, I suspect only part of it has to do with the little blue pill. I suspect most of it has to do with the fact that for the first time in a long time I am feeling empowered. I feel IN CONTROL. In TOTAL control of my life.
For a control freak, that's a pretty big deal.
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